Becoming Proud of Yourself
Mar 10, 2022
What happens when you invest in yourself?
Two years ago, I would have spiraled out by all the things that have been thrown at me lately. I would of spent ALOT of time wondering where I went wrong, did I manifest this, why the heck would I do that, what thoughts were running in my subconscious that I had no control over that were making all these curve balls being thrown at me????? I would have shown up as a raging bull in a china shop during two things recently involving my boys. I proudly used to state, I’m a momma bear and nobody messes with my boys!
The AHA I had last night after everything was said and done, I no longer show up as that woman. I knew I needed to feel my feelings before walking into a situation that would not benefit from me walking in as a raging bull or a momma bear ready to protect. I gave myself permission to feel the anger, the fear, ALL the feelings. Within those 15 minutes, when I reached my destination, I walked in calm, focused and confident. I asked one question, then stood and watched as it all unfolded, trusting and knowing that I would know what to say or do when I needed to know it.
Today I show up differently in all areas of my life. I still have some “old” things run through my mind, yet I have grown and learned so much in the last 2 years, that if it gets past me without realizing I can choose differently, I usually catch it within a day or two, if it’s bigger it may take a week, yet it’s no longer months or years of holding on to a bs story I no longer wish to be telling.
I may falter, yet I offer myself grace, as I offer to others. I may judge, yet not as harshly as I once did. I offer myself the same forgiveness I’ve always given so freely to others. I am more of the confident and powerful woman I’ve always wanted to be, today! I have room for growth, yet I am SO F’ING PROUD of who I am TODAY!